Potential

So. I just wanna say: I totally called it.

Once I finished that paper, all thoughts of blogging left my mind. It could be the quickly approaching finals and last minute projects that I didn't have time to procrastinate, but I'm not sure :)

But today I'm thinking a lot about being grateful for where you are.

This last year has been full of many new experiences. Many positive, discouraging, educational and worthwhile experiences. I'm happy to say that I am truly grateful for each one!

I am grateful for every time I didn't get a call back for a show.

I am grateful for every C on a test. (there have probably been a few too many of those)
But I am more grateful for the curves on the tests that I received C's on... (there are varying degrees of gratitude, I'm sure!)

I'm grateful for every time I didn't get a role after receiving a call back.

I have reflected a lot on these experiences that some people would call failures. Maybe they were. Maybe they are. But to me, they have been essential stepping stones of where I want to be. The really frustrating part isn't the 'failing', it's the fact that I want so badly to be somewhere that is going to take me a long time to get to. It's not impossible. But it's not fast either.

It's more like me wanting to be in on the other side of the country tomorrow, but I'm only able to walk on foot. And as badly as I wish I could be Harry Potter and Apparate, the fact of the matter it, I can't. It doesn't mean I can't eventually get there, but it just won't happen tomorrow.

And that doesn't mean I am failing now.

i need to remind myself that.

I'll definitely be posting more about these experiences. And the future ones to come. there will be many.
But for today, I am reminding myself to be grateful for where I am. Right now. The Savior loves me today. He expects me to do my best and to call on Him for support and aid. If I do that, then He will come and assist me. He doesn't wait until I've checked off a To Do list and accomplished this list of mortal items. He waits until I invite Him to come and help me. If I can do that, then He will ALWAYS come and be there. I need to have that kind of patience with myself. To see myself through His eyes. With Patience, Love and Potential. So much Potential.

I love where I am. I don't always understand why I'm where I am, but I'm going to love it. And do what I'm supposed to do. Be the best me I can be. Then I'll be ready to arrive to where I want to be :)