The World Needs more Voice Lessons

so. There's this thing. maybe it's a feeling. I guess it is more a feeling than a thing. since it is something I feel...

I don't know if everyone gets it. I think so. Maybe not in the same way as me, but I hope everyone does. it is such a unique feeling, but maybe not...if everyone gets it...

ok- so, I don't know how to start out talking about this. I guess I'll just go for it.

I need to perform.

Well- I thought I did.

It has been over a year since I've been in a fully staged musical. This is by far the longest time I've gone. I can't even believe it's been that long. but then my heart starts to ache and I realize I can believe it. because I can feel how much it affects me.

Literally- my heart aches/hurts/is sad/is heavy- I feel it...right in the heart. on the inside.

so, I've been thinking a lot about this lately...but then the most wonderful thing happened today: my voice lesson.

You don't understand- my voice lessons are the most wonderful, inspiring, encouraging, incredible, fun, exciting, lovely, ground breaking, intense, always-too-short 45 minutes/hour of my life! (or at least week)

you think I'm exaggerating :)

but seriously!

I have been taking private voice lessons for...it'll be 2 full years in August. It has been an incredible journey! I can't believe how far I've come! And in that time...I don't believe I have had one "bad" or "unproductive" or "NON-groundbreaking/breakthrough" lesson...does everyone get that have those kind of experiences so often? the experience of always having something to progress in and to work on and to learn and to excel in and to grow at?

I leave every voice lesson on Cloud 9! How could I not? Every lesson I learn something new about myself, about my voice, about the GIFT of music, about these incredible bodies we were give, about life, about emotion, about honesty, about communicating, about growing, about being yourself, about being your BEST self...woah. I think the world needs more experiences like this.

basically. the world needs more voice lessons ;)

(this is the part I'm going to reference the feeling I was rambling about at the beginning- just in case you don't catch that!)

I hope that everyone gets to have something in their life that makes them feel so happy and confident in their life. I realized today that while I LOVE performing with all my heart- the journey and growth that comes between performances and during the preparation process is what makes it all worth it. There is a special emotion that comes from performing that can't ever be replicated, but there is also a feeling of progress that comes in a person pursuit of study that is so gratifying. More than gratifying: fulfilling, substantial, lasting, definitely long term :) :) What I really need is to keep learning. not just need because I don't have any other choice right now, but need  as in that-is-the-whole-reason-music-is-so-important-to-me-and-my-life-and-it's-more-than-just-music-but-learning-in-every-part-of-life-but-music-is-a-way-I-feel-the-closest-to-my-potential-as-a-Child-of-God.

 I am grateful that I have found the thing(s) in my life that is shaping me into my best self:
 my testimony of Jesus Christ & the gift of music He has given me.

I truly truly hope that everyone has something in their life that makes them feel this way. Whether is it calculus  or biology or drawing or writing or teaching or whatever your passion is.

I hope you don't think I'm being too dramatic. Passionate. that is a better word :)